haiss. okaess. not you all de fault. is mine. is really totally my fault. i dont want peeps to pity mie or whats. every matter is really my fault. i knew that. i just knew that. if i tell, nothing would change too. nothing canns be solved. everything that i have done. is my fault. i only canns blame myself. so you all are miserable. so as me. yahhs. everyone has its own personal problem. i would nottx want anymore care and concern lerrs. iit doesnt matter to mie anyway anymore. NO MORE. i dont want to assume anything. anyhow. everyone will care someone. okaaes. i am hurting everyone. including myself. whats i think is. no matter how hard i tryy. nothing will come up. NOTHING ! so there is no point. NO. i wish i met with an accident NOW. is what i think. not because like that things will be solved. not want peeps to feel gguilty. sadd. i know it doesnt help. but i think there is no solution at all. nothing could help. is my choice. my decision. what i want. just take it as i timid. dont dare to face annything. want to avoid. being selfish. canns ? its difficult. real difficult. things surre affect studies de. you all canns say i dont know how to cope. i know you all canns. I CANT ! this is just mie. i had slack so much. wanted to go bacck. and i cant. hope i canns slowly. thannks a lot for those words. yahhs. you bother to still write and let me see. listen to your advice. but on the other hand. haiss. okaes. i go eat shit lohhs. if i eat then you should eat too. bloody hell. its different person canns. haiss. i shall nottx cry anymore. no use anyway. i made up my mind. maybe i will not online so often. spent the time to study. improve on my studies. maybe is too slow. but at least i want try. yahhs. hope i canns do it. today was a boring day. i tried to forget what happen. but i cant. nvms. just face it. not easy at all. my chinese super LAN. cannot save lerrs. listening mehhs ? maybe. thannks boss for telling. so nicce of him. bought assessment bk. yahhs. such a good gift or present ? ummmm. hope he canns cheer ups and forget the past. yahhs. start a new life. for mie. i cant. i knew that myself. my physics failed. haiss. shall do sth lerrs. sadd. after school have meeeting. but expected. none of the meeting are serious. because of me. yahhs. ME. or you all ? dont even bother to reply msg. whatt for msg you all. wtf. cant stand you all. you all reply one msg. and me msg so many and reply. cant understand arrr ? come and do lahhs. mrng take the effort to treat us. he give us the infomation. want us to have funn. unite. bond. be happy. and you all. one by one wont go de. surre de. is like so cold blooded. haiss. dont know how to describe you all. eat a little in canteen. went to hougang mall with don and brins. buy something. then go home lerrs. thannks for the mp3. it did help me. if i canns have it whenever i study. it will be so helpful. canns ? the best is buy one. but no money. haiss. okaes. shall stop here. tomolo is mich birthday. wa. everyone like not free. ummmm. poor thing. see hows lohhs. have geo remedial. ss test ? then no time to collect lerrs. hows ? think think. i go sleep lerrs. my eyes. head. all pain lahhs. going to remmind boss lerrs. gd nites !
