sighhs. today woke up and cant do anything. i am boredd. never go k box lerrs. arrrrgh ! stayed at home. i draw the curtains down. and listen to music. BOREDD ! i started doing maths. science. a bit a bit. better than nothings. yahhs. i am locked up ! i hate being alonne. i am bored bored bored. do lots of stupid stufffs. i went to weigh myself. yea ! lighter lerrs. maybe i see wrong. yahhs. i find nothing to do. then went online. boring too. wanted to do f&n. but dont know where to start. i have to re-cook all over agains. arrrrrgh ! so mafan. left one more week only. no time eft. i tryy to sleep. i cant. and have serious headache. arrrrgh ! pain. tomolo going chalet. have band ? dont think i going bahhs. i bet the attendence sarks. sighhs. hope you all enjoy today. whys ? i become like thats ? i am bored. sadd. did i crys ? a bit only. i am alonne. lonely ! i thought sat canns go sentosa. i was looking forward to it. whys ? where are you all ? lost. i cant find everyone. where have you all gone to ? i hate the feeling. i lost everyone. when i need you all, where aare you all ? maybe is my fault. i never done my part. i never says anything. sighhs. its mie. is mie agains. i hate myself too. collapsing ! i am hurt. by ? people around mie. all of you all. my friends. you. family. i am sorrys to say thats. i dont know hows to ans you. i dont want you all to be sadd. to hais. i know is difficult. just like mie. i cant do it. haiss. i am tiredd. sick of this life. please let mie go to the heaven. it will be better than here. saw many pictures. couples. sianns. i am alonne. sighhs. watched tv. superstar. ummmm. some are shuai horrs. hees. got hunks and babes. hahas. admire lehhs. not like mie mahhs. i really need lots of money to buy lots of stuffs. i want to shop. i want to drink. i want to do many things. but there are little time for mie. study and study ? thought say go outtx study together ? work hard together ? where ? i relax too much lerrs. i dont want to regret. but i dont want to be at home. is so boring. everyday seems a boring day. dont know whats will happen tomolo. will i be enjoying ? next week have lots of lessons. plus tuition. i want die lerrs. how i wish i am clever. i have talents. i have money. i have true friends. i have someone. i have powers. sighhs. i am thinking too farr. is impossible. i think if i have nothing to do, i will study. hoping to find a accompany to pei mie study. must have the xin de. if not also no use. dont want to waste time anymore. canns i do it ? i failed many times. did i succeed before ? NO ! i hope i canns. please help mie, GOD. i want to sun tanned soon. good nites ! take cares. huggs-
