sighhs. today woke up early. and went to tuition alonne. haiss. have been thinking a lottx during the whole day. yahhs. early in the morning, i have lots of thinking. sit on the train in one corner. looking at peoples around mie. look and look around. i want to be a baby. so cute and small. how i wish. i canns be so happy if i am still young. haiss. time seems to fly faster when i am alonne. sighhs. whys ? mie life ! thats my life. all alonne. finally reached kembangan lerrs. do and do maths qns lohhs. must practise mahhs. but i still dreaming lohhs. i look here and there. up and down. left and right. haiss. i hope i am nottx wasting money. quite ex mahhs. quite only. i want science tuition. but it seems thats no time ? actually have. weekends lohhs. still haven found any. haiss. canns i improve ? will i be able to ? around 12 plus canns go home lerrs. those sadd and nicce songs accompany mie today. but also made mie crys. haiss. lots of memories. happy memories. sadd memories. and now. all gone. si bai si bai arrrr. on the way home. yahhs. alonne. i treat it as i am independent. would you care ? haiss. reached home lerrs. still have to prepare lunch for my sisters. ma fan. is always mie. i want a real bro. thats canns take cares of mie. i canns rely on. sighhs. slack around. i auto and auto agains and agains. do my homework. stuck at summary there. and i dozee off. just a while. feeling tiredd agains. headache ! woke up and parents are back. sianss. never go outtx. watch tv and ate home cooked food. okaes lahhs. have curry mahhs. i feel thats i like my parents. but also hate them. hate their actions of controlling mie. nagging mie. haiss. if you all stop these, i will love you all. but i know is impossible lahhs. right ? i know it myself. nicce charity show. i like the dice part. so nicce and cool. i want to learn lehhs. seems easy. lolss. yahhs. we called twice lerrs. very good horrs ? hahas. sianns arrr. tomolo have to help my parents. have to wake up early. i want to sleep de. neverminds. going outtx after thats. to the library to borrow books. cause f&n coursework qns came outtx lerrs. have to busy agains lerrs. stress arrr. day after day. chinese oral is nearer and nearer lerrs. SHIT ! damm scared. i haven practise today. die lerrs. dont want badd results. save mie. about you all, i am tryying to accpet it slowly. no choice. hope you all are happy and dont regret ! you ? i have no idea too. i know is hard to forget. i am thinking too much. i am badd. i am selfish. i am rude. i am evil. blame mie. dont care mie. hate mie ! is nottx worth it. haiss. my heart is hurting. is dying soon. good nites ! take cares. huggs-
