sighhs. sadd. haiss. woke up at 7 plus. damm tiredd. have to help my parents. nvms. i dont mind. i know they are xin ku. i heart pain. sorrys ! but the way you all treat mie, made mie hate you all. but at times, i love you all. i hope my parents' health is okaes too. yahhs. help then around 11 plus went home. have time, so do finish summary. and went to meet reeree first. went to bugis. cause there have a new library. go eat with her first. at coffee bean. damm full. i love ice mocha. walk aroundd. saw you and her. and other people. i turn back. think you never saw. we drifted anyway. i dont know whats to do. once very good friend. and now, stranger. jiajia haven come. i dont want to care. i should nottx interfere ? jiajia and her friend came. reeree is angry or pissed. i dont know whys am i there ? whys should i turn up ? hys should i call her ? whats happen to mie ? haiss. i am lost. i just see my darrling walk off and i never stopp her. i dont know whats to do. i stand there and feel like walking across the busy road. sighhs. no choice. the library never open. shit ! tomolo must have sources lerrs. so take cab to woodlands. $15 bucks. i never pay. feel badd. the feeling is there everyday agains. i knew it. it wont disappear. whys ? i just REN. i have to go library. i know they are badd. i still ... i know. i am nottx stupidd. i am just wearing a mask everyday. to everyone. haiss. reached lerrs. bigg lehhs. find until very xin ku. tiredd ! around 4 plus. weent to causeway point. near there only. i drink only. hao lerrs then go home lohhs. take 161. already feeling unwell from just now. haiss. feeling unwell. my skin still very ugly. still po pi. i scratch and scratch. want to sun tann agains. i very si bai lehhs. dont even have a single true friend. si bai si bai. sadds. you called. whys ? cause she never call you. or when she is busy. when you have her, you wont call. hows many times lerrs ? i know. but i still picked up and entertain you. i am tryying to joke with you. made you happy. but am i happy ? NO ! the moment i hang the call. i cried. whats am i to you all ? i had already give up. but whys am i still entertaining you all. listen to all the hurting words. answering every calls. who am i to you all ? just a substitute. just a toy. just a piece of shit. you all dont know hows i feel. no one knows. is everyday. at least one. i am being hurt everyday. i am in pain. my heart have a deep deep hole. thats cannot be mend. i am sadds. even you. thought i canns trust you. depend on you. i dont know. i should nottx made anyone unhappy or sadd agains. i cannot be selfish. i cannot be rude. i cannot ! i am alonne. just let mie go peacefully canns ? i just hope one day i cant take it and burst. i wont blame anyone. tomolo have to go school. watch initial d ? is like since when ? cancelled and cancelled agains. fuck ! dont watch lahhs. is always like thats. whats i want to do, is always end up so FUCK ! nothing is possible. i die lerrs then watch bahhs. wait long long then watch. nottx i dont want. is impossible. no point. listen to your heart. go with it. dont care mie. leave mie alonne in the darkness. i cant stop wearing a mask. i cant stop crying. i cant be happy. noting canns cure mie now. good nites ! take cares. huggs-
