sighhs. last night is a struggle for mie lohhs. woke up at 3pm cause of cramps. seriously in pain. i cant sleep. cant lie down. force myself to walk and ate pills. went back to my bed. sat there suffering from the pain. my first time so pain. is like to die lerrs. i wanted to faint. i wanted to die. i wanted to take away this pain. i want to sleep forever. finally i lie down. i think i never sleep at all. the next morning, i felt damm tiredd and pain. haiss. have the same routine everyday. woke up and went to school. today never late. i fell asleep when i reading the magazine. yawns ! went back class. i no mood to talk much. joke much. blahs blahs. have one hour of recess againss. eat slowly lohhs. after thats have chinese lesson. sianns. i never listen de. i never even bring books lohhs. hahas. after school have maths mock exam againss. do lohhs. do till 330. soso lahhs. dont know canns make it mahhs. reeree gave up. haiss. i dont know whats to say. went to canteen to wait for don. saw you. i just turn and went to toilet. ummm. then went to take train to tuition lohhs. sellfishboy indeed. eat tommy never share de. only give us yellow one. we then dont want. tiredd and sianns arrr. finally reached lerrs. do maths qns. i am slow today. hows ? play lahhs. talk lahhs. around 7 we left there. then took a train to aljunied. tryy taking 62. see will faster anot. in the end. almost the same only. reeree have the privilege. reached home and rush to see superstar. ummm. nottx badd. i still dont like weichong. M2, M4, M5 nottx badd. yuppes. tomolo have physics test. die lerrs. i know nuts. god bless ! whats to do ? haiss. i say dont hais. but i ownself also. so cant help much too. small cut also a cut whats ? and is have reason. have something happen so you cut. you wont say. i wont ask. i know you will say nothing. you said it suxs. okay. i dont know whats. think i dont understandd you. did i say i give up lerrs ? NO ! tryying to save everyone. i am scared. i scared one day, somebody will leave mie. whys some people like to cut ? arrrgh ! cant stand you all. i got think of cutting myself before. but i never whats. i never tried to control you. is your choice. dont wish to see you hurting yourself also. i am lost. i dont knows hows to help you. you kept hais. something big happen. is it her ? ummm. guess you dont need mie. i am of course angry. cause you kept things from mie. and lots lohhs. dont want to say so much lerrs. also no use. whats you want do then do lohhs. haiss. lost contact with the past peoples too. suan lerrs bahhs. good nites ! take cares. huggs-
