Saturday, August 13, 2005
Saturday, August 13, 2005
disaster'
sighhs. disaster arrr. i hate today. arrrrgh ! whats a day i had. today we will know the chinese o level results. wth. i was damm scared. haiss. morning have maths quiz. so boring. look at her and think thats you will look at her too. yuppes. neverminds. pity von. her grp like left outtx her. poor thing. after thats i look forward to pe. but dont have. sadds sia. went back class. then have maths. heard thats charity and sincerity know the result lerrs. heard their screams. haiss. all of us very scared. wanted to know the results. is like so unfair. should everyone take together mahhss. sighhs. waited and waited. hong cried. i first time see her crys. wa. made mie crys too lohhs. one by one. okay. the teacher came in and few of us were there only. we never go for recess. no appetite at all. save money also. i dont want to know my results. looking at them going forward to see the results. their faces. i asked and found thats i get C6. fcuk. i get C6. i never get thats before. wth. i was damm sadds. i just burst into tears. i never expect A1 or A2. at least B3 or B4 lahhs. but i get this shit grade. plus my oral also pass only. am i thats stupid ? i am a chinese. shameful. yes. so shameful. no one canns make mie happy. i just want to crys. i know crys doesnt help anything. i cant stop it. thannks those who cared and consoled mie. i appreciate. but i cant accept the fact. i am nottx as strong as you all. all of you get A2, B3 and B4. if you all were mie ? C6 lehhs. is like so worse. nobody will understandd de. haiss. fated de lahhs. the next lesson is physics. and she talk so much. want to made things worse lohhs. shutup ! no mood for lesson lahhs. i only cry. i dont know whats to do. stand up on my feet ? for now, i cant do it. haiss. i am tiredd. really tiredd lerrs. no strength to stand up. thannks fenx and meiling. they made mie feel better. i am jealous of those who get A2, B3 and B4. am i retaking ? i have no idea. i dont feel like. is so tiredd. i have forgotten everything. i have to start all over agains. but C6 plus other subjects, where canns i go ? hell lohhs. haiss. have to think lohhs. whys i get c6 ? because i never tryy my very best. the paper is difficult. i rush. is it true ? but is so unfair. life is so unfair. arrrrgh ! this result really affect mie the whole day. tears were always there. after school went to ps. to buy present lohhs. if nottx i go home cryys lerrs. haiss. we were very hungry. no money lerrs. no choice lahhs. then we ate kfc. damm full. have competition mahhs. i am nottx the slowest. i became a bit crazy lahhs. after a while back to myself. buy lerrs. went to carrefour. bought track shorts. but the colour like very AA. and i am broke. dont think mum will give mie money. sadds. then went home lerrs. so suay lohhs. today so unlucky. the train wont be stopping between serangoon and sengkeng. neverminds. we hack care. all of us were tiredd. yuppes. went home lerrs. i climbed the stairs up to my hse. 12th floor. thats was a good exercise. nobody is at home. and i stared to anyhow think. my eyes are damm pain. my head is damm pain. lie on the sofa and listening to songs. crys' suan lerrs. no use also. the marks still like thats. guess i will be moody for a few days. or everyday. i wanted to work hard. study hard. but i just cant. push mie. nagg mie. force mie. give mie pressure. let mie die. told my mum about my results. she was shocked and scolded mie. yahhs. i know is my fault. dont want to online for so long lerrs. study more important. sleeping late lohhs. thats my habit. tomolo nottx going for mentoring againss. soon i will be kicked outtx. neverminds. it never helps mie. celebrating reeree birthday. but will i have the mood ? i tryy bahhs. dont want to spoil her day. nothing to say lerrs. congrats to those have god results. good nites ! take cares. huggs-
