Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
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sighhs. sighhs. sighhs. dont wanna mention about yesterday lerrs. hais. i dont know whys will like thats. whats went wrong ? something is nottx right. i think i am at fault too. just feel very luan. i dont know whats to do now. have i made the wrong decision ? or is it fated to be like thats ? i dont want ! i didnt blame you. but myself. i am just confused. its been a long long time since i cried non stop. whys ? is damm hurtful. haiss. lock myself in the room. didnt want who to see mie crying. guess i didnt sleep at all. today went to school. am i avoiding ? errrrh. never talk much from yesterday. having headache. eyes damm pain. i dont want to come to school. wanted to be sick. i should have kill myself yesterday. sighhs. knew today will take back prelims paper. so i am prepared for the worst. geo paper. failed. 29/100. whats a nice grade. kaes. i am sadds. tearing. haiss. i just cant stop the tears. its coming againss and againss since yesterday. i knew i will fail. after thats english. kaes. failed againss. burst into tears. cant tahan lerrs. i guess i am just wu yao ke jiu. whatever you console mie, i just cant listen. i cant continue. thannks ree. jie so positive. but i cant you know ? i have no strength to continue my life. i cant find anything for mie to continue on. i can do it. is impossible. i failed againss and againss. o level is so near. and i am stuck here. cant go on anymore. i dont wish to talk. let mie go. sighhs. have f&n then. lini never come. so we slack around. tomolo will be preparing food. like party. yuppes. went for recess. i dont wanna move. sit there and dont talk is the best. whats i do also let people say. fcuk her lahhs. did i provoke you ? like you very chio hors. shut up your big fat mouth lahhs. never think before you say. i currsed you ! made my mood from badd to worst. haiss. i dont want to care anymore. is meaningless. is your mouth mahhs. i regretted going canteen. i should isolate myself at home. hate seeing this and thats. wnt back class and took back maths paper. failed a maths. haiss. suan le. i wanna give up. after school have eng remedial. sianns. i wanna sleep lerrs. yawns ! finished then pei darrling and ree go canteen. hy and ekfang came and chat chat. kaes. a bit weird lahhs. miss the past. sighhs. then walk from school to sss againss with darrling. crazy us. today is more windy. just opp only. yuppes. since both of us nottx good mood. thannks ehs. although i never feel better. darrling told mie about thats shuai ge. lolss. he really came up. got fate sia. he is really nice. but is a malay. uuurgh. he sat opp us. lolss. omg. shuai ge. ummm. darrling shy lerrs. i alight the bus and left them there. hahas. whats will happen ? to be continued ... so got home and started to zibi lohhs. my mind is nottx working at all. i cant study. i cant do anything. i did thats againss. hurt' tearing. tryy to sleep. raining days made mie sleep. arrrgh. my head very pain. my whole body is hurt. especially my heart. watched tv. so whats canns i do ? i am lost. canns i do it againns ? canns i forgive and forget ? i really cant continue. no one canns push mie now. guess nothing canns motivate mie. will i survive till Os ? if this continues, i cant survive. i will regret. i will be gone. my head is damm pain. i cant even think of stuffs. kill mie. murder mie and everything is over. end here-
