Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
kill mie'
sighhs. its another torturing day. when it is stopping ? fcuk. i dont want to see. kill mie. kill mie and i will feel better. make mie disappear. NOW ! die of hunger ? cannot. kill is faster. haiss. got back chinese paper. disappointed. B4. i know crying wont help. i know. but you think i canns stop it ? it started since last last night. i wont forget. never forget. darrling so pro. A1 horrs. jiayou. for mie, is gone case lahhs. i cant find any reason for mie to continue on. sighhs. then took back e maths paper two. so ? i aim higher. i only pass two subjects nia. where canns i go ? failed english. failed ss. failed. geo. failed a maths. hopeless lahhs. i dont know whats to do lahhs. i wont go fan you. i wont do anything. i will leave you alonne. sorrys. i know i aint a good friend to you. i wish i canns rise to the heaven now. i dont want to care about other stuffs. i am alonne whats. all alonne. i wont blame anyone. is my life. my fate. i cant do anything. after thats f&n lerrs. i finally relax a bit. i finally laugh. thannks ! we do the fruit salad. i cut the honeydew. blahs blahs. oops. cut myself. neverminds. is numb. always numb. kill mie if you want. i will thannks you. errrh. kiwi so hairy. yucks. mango so sour and hardd. lolss. ours are eeasy. some do jelly. some do pizza. some do muffin. some do nuggets and fries. yuppes. nice party we had. make our own pizza. add more more ham and cheese. hahas. all done. no teachers came. so we left some for them and we eat all. muhahaha. so hungry lerrs. guess we enjoyed ourselves bahhs. thannks mdm.ong. if nottx i wont laugh de. played with kor. lose and eat the fruits. lolss. damm full lerrs. but i very high mahhs. hahas. after f&n. back to myself. have to do eng compo. wth. i dont want lohhs. no mood canns. no matter hows i do also fail. haiss. wrote one sentence and i doze off. then have geo lesson. i never llisten also. i never buck uup. i never work hardd. but slack and hack care. i will if you kill mie. yahhs. after school have ss. but i never go. i dont want. dnt feel like. went home. saw sis. walk together lohhs. i want to thannks my sis. she made mie laugh. really laugh. i thought i canns rely on. but somehow it is gone. i lost everything againss. hopes you made. hopes you dashed. sighhs. exactly 20 days. i will remember those days. these short period. i still have to say thannks. i dont want recieve sorrys. nothing canns cure. nothing canns make mie happy. i feel like returning thats. canns i ? i dont think i will wear. make mie feel worse. haiss. tearing and tearing. nothing canns stop it. i lost trust againss. nottx even one canns be trusted now. whys have to do this ? haiss. watched tv. tearing againss. missing those days. so whats ? it happened and cant be changed. do eng compo. read some compos. and came here. i still have no plans. no goals. no aims. no targets. i dont feel like staying here anymore. would you take mie away ? i dont want to live in here. no one will understandd. sighhs. its pain. its hurtful. its bleeding. i wont be okay. never. it takes time. or forever to be ookay. i cant handle my o levels. i cant continue. i rather be a piece of rubbish than now. meaningless. headache- 27 September 2005 !
