Thursday, September 29, 2005
Thursday, September 29, 2005
toyed'
sighhs. another day. i really dont want to go school. arrrrgh ! i cant stop the tears. hais. reached school lerrs. told darrling lerrs. cause i dont want to hear about it. haiss. yuppes. tryying to control my emotions. i have to. errrrh. then have silent reading. oops. i forgot about it. i always forgot. phew. i am saved. i never read de. cause i kknow i will fall asleep. lolss. look around. saw jamil ccaught people. hahas. one by one. so suay. then see those people so the survey. i have nothing to do. i must do something if nottx i will anyhow think againss. sighhs. nottx in good mood. went up for ss. took f&n paper back. haiss. sadds. disappointed. thought i canns pass. UNFAIR ! big deal arrrh. see o level how you all survive ? pissed. made my mood worse. i have to sit on the floor. cause i didnt go yesterday mahhs. neverminds. one girl also neverminds. i wont care lahhs. nottx being honest. neverminds. nottx mie also. sit alone there. zibi and think about stuffs. i never listen to whats bagei teaching. i never talk. i only know hows to cry and be sadds. yuppes. after lesson, went back class. wanted to be alonne. took back chem and physics paper. haiss. failed againss. whys fail everything ? i really lost everything now. yi wu shuo you lerrs. sighhs. congrats to those get 17 and 18 de. errr. then recess lerrs. got free period too. but i dont wanna eat. i just dont feel like. end up i bought chips only. then went to com lab for chinese. crapps there. finally i am laughing. think i have such a big blow thats i go crazy. i laughed and laughed. do stupid things. lolss. so farnie. we played too too train. hahas. vier, boss, xiaoming started. and pull on by one. hahas. i cant stop laughing. then we were saying the lee's are the best. hahas. yea ! we are. hahas. after school have to stay back for ss. so went up lohhs. stupid von and darrling. bluff mie. errrh. bagei canns teach well in small grps. yes, she canns be so cute and farnie. i dont like the unreasonable her. eee ! so extra. thought our class only. plus others. yucks. i hate them. neverminds. we crapps within ourselves. she talk so much. blahs blahs' some people act clever. argue with bagei about qns. waste our time ! finally we canns go lerrs. thought very late already but is only 230. yahhs. went to canteen. sit down and eat. then chat chat. boss is crapps lahhs. cant stand him. darrling laughed till the whole face red. lolss. hahas. around 3 plus, we walk to bus stop and wait for rowen. then went home lerrs. i walk thats way. thats route. thats place. haiss. tearing. do thats maths paper one. then sis bought shih lin. my first time eating. yuppes. nice lahhs. watched tv and chat with kor. die lerrs lahhs. 20 plus. where canns i go ? go hell lohhs. so sibai. do we have to be like thats ? talked less than 10 sentences. haiss. maybe i felt worse than you. i dont know whats to do lahhs. i wont trust anyone anymore. no more. and i hate liars. if i know you bluff mie, i will hate you forever. hope nottx. i know i cant go on with this. i know i hurt myself. i know i lost everything. i know i am useless. i know i am piece of rubbish. so i am treated in this way. my whole life is ruined. it hurts more than anything. and during this period. wth. i really cant cope. i cant handle. no motivation to continue. thannks ree. i tryy to overcome this. although i know is impossible. am i just so irritating ? forget it. i will never have the reason. i will never understandd. i have a heart failure. i have brain tumour. i have every illness. so leave mie alonne. shoo ! i am dangerous. i am a pests. i am just a toy. haiss. the first and last time-
