Thursday, October 27, 2005
Thursday, October 27, 2005
bleeding.
sighhs. today nothing much. went to school around 9. heard singings. ummm. pei jes eat. then went to science lecture lerrs. one room. only one. no choice. many peeps. no place. took chaird and no tables for us. neverminds. crapps. tjy lahhs. thought he is hong jun yang. lolss. he brought a brown umbrella. so farnie. wanted him to open it suring break. but he too excited lerrs. cant wait to let us see. hahas. he too AA lerrs. teach rate of reaction and oraganic. i know more. yuppes. good. two hours passed. tjy have fans lehhs. one only. hahas. so farnie. after lecture, went to hougang mall. eat kfc. fat lahhs. arrrrgh ! walk around. bought lollipops. nowadays will have diabetes. ahyo. i lorve it. many flavours. thannks jes. hees. went back to school for chem. i hate waiting for 62. my legs are broken. she is good lahhs. i understandd moles lerrs. finally ! ask qns. chat with her. yuppes. nice nice. but she is sick. take cares. hahas. after chem, went to canteen. slack around. uncle and auntie treat us ice cream. so good. i am so touched. i will study hardd de. thannks for encouraging. want to crys lerrs. lolss. hahas. but i doubt some people wont appreciate. nottx gen peng lohhs. is a kind of gesture. still talk at peeps back. pui. so rude. uncivilised. thats ice cream so swt. hahas. okay. start to do maths lerrs. two teachers. i have lots of qns. but errrrh. no time. haiss. blahs blahs' left few mins only. i also want go there sit sit. nice. but no stars. no wind today. nottx good. gonna rain. went home then. sorrys. think i bad mood. eat. watched tv. rained. haiss. are all thats implying mie ? i dnt know whats to do lahhs. i hate now. i really hate now. fcuk. i rather i dnt know you. haiss. i rather i die now. sighhs. i am really lost. i hate this feeling. have you changed ? confused. i admit i am still jealous. so ? does it make a difference ? NO ! hate you. hate you. hate you. am i hating ? contradicting lahhs. ARRRRGH ! i cant stop this thinking. i felt like a fool. asking myself lots of qns. did i regret ? did i do something wrong ? am i so irritating ? am i so disgusting ? haiss. i am bahhs. one month lerrs. i am still like thats. stupid. yes, i am. foolish. yahhs. so ? who cares anyway ? whatever i say, doesnt make a difference. so whys should i say so much ? i cared. but do you know ? like now, always the few sentences. or nottx even one. haiss. used to it ? so much difference. sadds. this way. then this way lohhs. i cant change also. since i am so bitch. forget about mie then. like thats is better ? sighhs. suan lerrs bahhs. i really think i am so silly. shall give myself many tight slaps. wake myself up. still in my lala land nia. wanted the past back. lorve the pasts. wanted a time machine more than my life. three more days. canns i do it ? gonna crazy lerrs. save mie !!! i cant handle this confusion i am unable to. come and take mie away frm all these. good nites. take cares.
