Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
duo shao ci wo xiao zhong dai zhe lei'
sighhs. today woke up at 9 plus. went to study at food court. alonne. nottx badd. i never care others mahhs. hahas. then don came. nottx late whats. vier and kor there too. more and more peeps. yuppes. mich, don and i bought perfume. lolss. cheap but good mahhs ? hahas. blahs blahs' went back school at 4 plus. find mrs lee. but finish lerrs. tml bahhs. hungry. eat mashed potato againss. fat lehhs. arrrgh. started to study. but i am nottx. brain is nottx working. i dnt understandd them lahhs. maybe they are troubled. i have think before. maybe i understandd. is difficult to control. but i hope you all please tryy. i dnt know hows to help. is badd for health. i dnt want. drifted. i hate drifting away. if lollipops canns help. i dnt mind buying for you all. but will it helps ? was thinking. having diabetes instead of cancer. ummm. choy choy choy ! haiss. never studied much. mrs goh gave map reading. slack around. went around. staring blankly. no mood lahhs. went to sit sit with jes. looking at the stars. the clouds. the sky the lamp. the field. the buildings. the place we once sitted. sadds. plus jes sang song. feel like crying. arrrh. 8 lerrs. went back and pack bag. in the end never study. hows ? i am still like thats ? hows am i going to survive ? went home then. haiss. duo shao ci wo xiao zhong dai zhe lei. who understandds ? ummm. jes made mie feel the same as her. or is actually the same. sadds. she canns be so HIGH and so sadds the next moment. i wanted to help. wanted to care. but dnt know hows to. sorrys. i am so sibai. sibai. sibai. sometimes i wanted to be like her. she canns say outtx her feelings. say all outtx. canns i ? i cant. opp of her. i nnever say. haiss. hope she is okay. everyone have positive and negative side. yuppes. badd mood everyday. sighing cant help. but i cant stop sighing mahhs. thinking of stuffs and cant stop tearing. cant describe. is simply sadds. nothing canns help. nothing canns cure. if the time machine canns works. maybe things canns be better bahhs. those photos. those images. those places. those features. those words you said before. i remembered every single one. but. sighhs. i thought i trusted one. and now. being alonne. SARKS. trusted no one. i cant. after so many lies and betrays. i am just too silly. or i am fated to be in this PATHETIC state. i always wish things thats are impossible. haiss. guess i just cant get outtx of this circle of problems. i hated myself for being so unreasonable at times. so selfish. so badd. so petty. so irritating. haiss. i really hope you canns save mie. 27th. haiss. 7th. haiss. good nites. take cares.
