sighhs. today woke up by the rain. wanted to sleep longer de. neverminds. cook porridge. cold weather. shivers* rianing heavily. so nottx going min's hse to study lerrs. stayed at home and study. yuppes. lock my self in the room. open the windows. do ws and whatever i canns. listen to songs. then continue to do. time flies so fast. haiss. i know i am wasting time. but whats to do ? sorrys kor. i dnt wanna go outtx. feel like being alonne. leave mie alonne. did thats againss. who cares ? i hate it. i hate thats feeling. then parents are back. blahs blahs' boredd. never go outtx. stayed at home. watched tv lohhs. i still have loads to study. tomolo going to school. lessons. tuition. studies. arrrgh ! bear with it. after this period i am free. yuppes. came online. maybe i should nottx have bahhs. or is my fault to think so much ? i hate myself. stupid ! its over. and i just cant gettx outtx. i am stubborn. i am silly. i am ugly. kill mie. dnt let mie see. dnt let mie hear. dnt let mie feel. haiss. i really want the past back. miss those days. those memories. those words. those happy times. i just cannt stop thinking. tearing. quite some time never crys lerrs. i just have to keep myself busy. i must be busy busy busy. i dont want to crys. i cant control. its all started there. and end there. i wont say anything much. distant. nottx i dnt care. but dnt know hows to. haiss. sadds. i am ms lonely. nobody will understandd. will you ? sighhs. bits and pieces. canns it be fixed ? good nites. take cares.
