Thursday, November 10, 2005
Thursday, November 10, 2005
BRAINLESS.
sighhs. today have english paper. i failed my compo lerrs. i dnt know whats am i writing. confused. distracted. wrong format for letter writing. i really very sibai. no english. no course. no job. no life. and thats it. ITS THE END ! after thats was compre. telling myself to do well. hope i did. but still have no confidence at all. dnt wanna aim high. during the break. feeling sadds and wanted to collapsed. but i became crazy with those formulas. arrrgh ! went up for physics paper. die lerrs. damm difficult. i know myself. i cant do it. moodless. speechless. went home after paper. cried. blood. i cant take it lerrs. headaches. pains everywhere. gonna die very soon. think i have many illness. good ? cool down and start doing maths. you will never see the smile today. maybe tomolo or never. if have, is also a fake one. nice right ? more papers to go. tomolo still have tuition and lesson. force myself to gettx this through bahhs. no choice anyway. guess i was really very stupid. BRIANLESS arrrh. guess it wasnt mie. and i am thinking too much. i should know thats i am lying to myself. whys i still continue ? is really numb. i cant take it. those days are like whats ? i trusted you and yet. is really a big blow for mie. even till now. haiss. i should know thats she is the one. thats the fact. the truth. i must accept it. i wanted to force myself to smile. to laugh. to crapps. to forget whatever shit. whys turn out to be like this ? like thats ? friends also like thats. i really dnt know whats to do. so i am thats irritating. so unreasonable. so sickening. so fcuk to be you all de friend. if is like thats, i have nothing to say then. i admit it lohhs. hate myself anyway. whys must i lorve myself ? whys must i cherish myself if no one does ? nottx even a single one understandds. so be it. leave mie there. dnt touch mie. you will hurt yourself and myself more. isnt it ? wanted to make things better and turn out to be worst. haiss. wish you all good lucks and good health. be happy. yuppes. thats all. i wont blame anyone. is my life. my fate. blame myself. only mie. yes, thats mie. good nites. take cares.
