Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
whounderstandds?
sighhs. whats am i thinking ? tearing and crying every nights for whats ? i felt like a fool. i felt so stupid. but i cant do anything now. i am lost. whats have i done wrong ? TELL MIE !!! guess i lost everything agains and agains. i think i shall just dnt come online. dnt be so KPO to see peeps's blog or whatever. i hate myself for being so fcuk. cant stand myself also. now is o levels. such important exams. i still canns online. and so KPO ? watch tv. i dnt want to. someone please stop mie. kill mie now is better. pain pain pain. tearing for you was like wasting time or whats ? i just cant control everytime. dnt care about mie then. hopes and dashed it away. agains and agains. nobody understands hows i feel. no one. slit slit slit. who cares anyway ? i really dnt understand whats i done wrong everytime. one by one. you all left mie. or i left you all ? the world just wants to make fun of mie. living in torturings and pains. i hate problems thats distract mie during exams. so irritating. i cant concentrate well. more papers to go. whats am i doing ? i regretted lerrs. if i never do well, where canns i go ? i must well dnt live lerrs. meaningless. sighhs. today have maths paper. was easy. but is a disadvantage to us also. haiss. ss paper was kind of okay. i studied venice. tryy to write i canns bahhs. but i am feeling so sick. wanted to give up. sighhs. feverish. went home. thinking and thinking. who understands ? i really wish thats all of us canns do well. graduate together. canns we ? pondering. confused about everything. i dnt understand you you you. treat it as i am just a kid. just a toy. just a soul. nothing just seems to go right. GOD ! i want your help. give mie the energy to continue my last lap.
