Thursday, December 08, 2005
Thursday, December 08, 2005
the right path ?
sighhs. today stuck at home. wanted to go outtx. sis dnt feel like. forget it. played maple. create another one ? sians. start all over againss. level 6 only. boredd. jobless. tml suppose to go outtx and find. but now whats ? nt cfm. always like thats. i hope i have ons friends. i need it. i cant find anyone. dnt knw turn to who. where are you all ? i dnt knw who canns i date. tell mie ! darrling went overseas. i miss her. hais. i want to go outtx tomolo. i dnt care ! i want. grrrrr. i will rot de. please someone date mie outtx. will you ? hmmm. days passed by. and i haven find any jobs thats suits mie. or rather i never work hard to find one. guess is my fault anyway. now i know whys finding job is so xin ku. i felt so pathetic. i need money. i really want to buy loads of stuffs. no job, no money. just so simple. no degree. no job. no money. no life. meaningless. yuppes. decision ? have i made one ? i really really have to ask myself. i dnt want to regret. i dnt want to. but everytime. or anything. i seems to think a lot. never had a decision. dnt knw how. kind of lost. never ever made a good decision. i cant. i just cant. never had my own mind and thinking ? somehow like being controlled by something powerful. arrrgh. evil spirits. lolss. just hope someone like god will enlighten mie. will lead mie. will give mie a path to go to. help mie in m any ways. thats will be so good. yahhs. will i ever had one ? a true one ? take cares. XP
