Saturday, February 11, 2006
Saturday, February 11, 2006
IAMafailure.
sighhs. i made my choices and submit this morning. but is a wrong move. all my fault. whys am i so kaisu ? is it because my dad says have to faster ? i am really confused. i need lots of advices. went to grandma hse. ate yu sheng and dinner. asked my aunties and uncles. i really have no face. hais. i have to think thoroughly again. all over again. and ammendment need ten bucks. ass lohhs. just blame mie will do. i am too rush. i am too silly. because of my english. i have limited courses. no matter what, is still my fault. all my fault. but is all too late for mie. i have to choose a path now. retaking english or other subjects or choose the course i want ? this course or that ? should i ? follow your heart. okays. i will think over it again and again. no rush. my lousy grades cant compare to those good ones. i am really jealous. but i dnt have the rights to. i dnt even have good grades. nt even one. such a failure. indeed. want to commit suicide ? if is time to die, god will take mie away. but if is nt, i just live on. my fate and life depend on you, GOD. somehow, i am sick of life. ups and downs. gossipings. quarrelings. relationships. whatever. i am tiredd. even my dad canns buy toto. using my grade. pathetic. seriously, my heart breaks. my grade canns buy toto. hahas. so nice right ? so cool. grandma encourage mie. was touched. gave mie money ? i dnt want to accept. with this kind of grade ? i appreciate. cant stop tearing. i am nottx okays. sry peeps for bluffing. today went outtx with sis to bugis. bought stuffs. wondering whys i have the mood ? i have to. is better than staying at home and zibi. bought prezzie. took neos. ate lunch at 4pm. lols. went home. confidence ? you canns do it ? hais. i cant even control my emotions. let mie sleep forever. dnt wake mie upp. let mie be. moodless.
