Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
love.hate.
sighhs. i dnt understandd what adults are thinking. i have already grown up. i have my own thinking. my own way. my own decisions. let mie decide. is it so difficult ? i want to take the courses. it will help mie. although will take up my time, i will tryy to handle my studies and courses. is mie who is suffering now. cant you just understandd MY feelings. even i want to work. work as what. you want to control. whatever it is, i will be controlled. fine then. i will be more rebellious. i am big enough to decide my own path. this is my life. nottx yours. is it the money problem ? hais. today bought a pair of addidas shoe. yuppes. finally i bought one. isnt so good as i thought. but is special. i like it. although it looks like school shoe frm far. i like the design. joce bought too. i hope nottx many peeps have that. i hate to be common. played bb at the same place again. the mood there was nottx as good as i thought. hais. getting lesser and lesser peeps. so pathetic. drizzle a while. we went to the nearby shelter. chat and sing song with jes. i like the wind. i am tiredd. have serious headache. every night is like a war. i am struggling to sleep. have to buy sleeping pills soon. next friday will be the day that determine which course i go. pray pray pray. i realise i canns shopp alone. one day i will. spending money almost everytime. is time to control. yahhs. are things under control ? nobody knows how i feel. until somebody come. just gettx lost. i need somebody. ]]=
