sighhs. i slack everyday. useless bum. hais. just opened the letter box. ngee ann. so many papers. so many forms. have to submit by tmr. i hope i go to rp. at least the course is better. every sch is far frm mie. i really dnt knw what to do. lost and perplexed. nt even studying and i felt stress. GRRR. think i aint happy at all. i dnt like my life. nth is interesting. everything is in a mess. my mind is losing control. i am nottx happy. i am dead. alrdy dead long long ago. there isnt any difference. unless somebody appear. unless miracle happen. unless i reborn. losing everyone.
